How do I go about a medical (pill) abortion?

I have a blood disorder and was told that I could die during child birth. This is really hard for me because I'm pro-life making a pro-choice descision. I've sat and cried because I know that I cannot go through with the pregnancy. I think I'm only a month along so I am planning on doing it immediatly. God himself knows that if I could I would give it up for adoption, cause I cant take care of it either. I'm only 20 and I'm not doing it because I cannot take responsibility for my actions, because I believe in doing so. I have so many more medical reasons as to why having this child would not be good. This fear of bleeding to death while bringing a child into this work is overtaking me. And I know that if I'm alive and want kids later on, I can harvest my eggs and get a surrogate. I can always make more children, I try to tell myself, but I cant get over this pain in my heart because I've always said I would never do it, but here I am. I dont think I can forgive myself but I have to do what I have to do. So how much does a pill cost? Could I get it from a regular doctor? Since I have a bleeding disorder should I be hospitilized during the abortion process? I'm just so scared and dont know what to do. Help would be greatly appreciated.